BFing

I've written about my breastfeeding problems in my previous post. To be honest, I never thought that I would still be breasfeeding Mik until now. I've tried all the things that I can do just to make sure that I could breastfeed him at least until he is 2 months old. Yup, that was my target - and then 2 months passed by, and I thought, 'Ok God, maybe we can try until he is 3 months old'. I took supplements, kurma-pegaga juice, fenugreek, you name it - and have possibly spent more than RM500 just on making sure that I still have my milk to give to my son. Still in our 3 months region, Alhamdullilah, I'm still able to breastfeed him and my target now would be to breastfeed him until I couldn't possibly do it anymore.

One thing I've learn is that I should have done more research during my pregnancy time, and also share it with hubby. I guess most/some people are very successful in their breastfeeding journey and the people I met is somehow are rather the successful ones, making me believe that breastfeeding would be a piece of cake, which of course in turn making me feel depressed for not being able to do it full time - stress really won't help me in the journey, of course. I'm glad that I got support from my breasfeeding friends, one introduced me to supplements that actually helps me in feeling healthier, if not increasing my milk supply, one actually gave good advices and provided me some tea to boost my milk supply and one actually keep on asking me every day about how my production was and kept on telling me not to give up. But I must say that there were some people/friends that actually encouraged me to give my son the formula. If I had known better, not even a drip of that formula would have entered my son's tummy. A lesson learnt for my future children.

I am still struggling, and there were times when I feel like giving up. But then every day, the only thing that keep me going would be, going back home from work as soon as possible and breastfeed my baby while looking at that big innocent eyes (yes, eventhough there were times when Mik suddenly became this naughty kid who keeps on nibbling at my nipples even after his Mama scolded him - its f*cking painful, I tell you, especially if your nipples are sore from all the pumping done during the day), feeling my happiest and I couldn't even imagine not breastfeeding him anymore.

Can't wait to go home to him now. *sigh* Miss my lil one.